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I always feel so icky whenever I'm on any social media and it's non-stop ads and "influencers" talking about mental health and childhood trauma and "healing your inner child" and whatever the fuck. I was never able to convey why it seems so wrong to me. This is an incredible article, you should be proud.

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Loved this! Recently had a polisci class on authoritarianism in which my professor mentioned that people who feel out of touch with society or that they have suffered tremendously in it subject themselves to someone or something that reassured them of their worries. When you compared Dr. LePera to swifties this class instantly came to mind. I think it’s boggling that even in our escapism we adhere to a norm. Great read! Thank you for sharing

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Amazing piece, think I will scream today!

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Suuuper interesting and thought-provoking, thank you very much for sharing it!

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“Dr. LePera’s group of “self-healers” are no different from Swifties; they’re fucking stans, a group of consumers easily manipulated because of the emotional relationship they have to the person-as-brand. At least Taylor gave us a few good songs to cathartically cry to before shoving her red scarf down our throats.“

I find this an interesting comparison. Do these self healers gather in droves in stadiums, clubs, coffee shops, cinemas, in the streets, and swap handmade friendship bracelets while they sing and scream to music with lyrical content about doing exactly that? Music about big and ugly and messy and inconvenient emotions, about pain and pleasure and loss and love and fun and childhood and family. Music that itself is a shameless and public expression of the full range of human emotions and experiences? Somehow I doubt it.

I also think it’s interesting that you think these Swifties, that you view with such derision, must be mindless consumers driven by a parasocial relationship with a person-as-brand, rather than a vast and non-monolithic group of mostly women of all ages who have connected deeply to art made by another woman about their universally relatable emotions and the inner world of a girl and then woman (not usually a topic of any respect or value), and connected with each other over a shared interest. I suppose I’m curious as to why you feel this way.

“Please picture me

In the weeds

Before I learned civility

I used to scream ferociously

Any time I wanted”

Swift’s own lyrics came to mind while I was reading and enjoying this piece. The obligatory Swift jab soured it, though. Is it only men who are artists whose work can inspire and connect fans? Can women only be brands, with consumerist stans? Or is this only true for Taylor Swift? Also I would love to know why the scarf irks you so.

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i’m actually a fan of taylor swift, so much so that she was my top listened to artist on spotify last year. but yes, i do have critiques of stan culture and consumerism re: the music industry and big pop acts like her. i think you can like an artist and appreciate their artistic output and still criticize the way they do business. i also don’t think it’s blatantly sexist to critique women, in fact i think it’s more sexist to consider women blameless angels no matter what they do.

at the time i wrote this, taylor swift was pumping out merchandise for her red re-release, and i had complex feelings about the brand that is taylor swift and the way her fans engage with that brand. it already feels so dated, but that was the meaning of the scarf reference.

that being said, you’re right that i probably could have done a better job extrapolating on that idea rather than throwing in a random sentence or two that gestures toward my more complex feelings about these themes—that line bothers me in retrospect because it’s weak writing.

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Fantastic article! I stumble upon self-help and 'adultenment' (is that the word? gosh I am so out of the loop) content every now and then but there's something that doesn't sit right. I wonder if it's that lack of actual context that's missing. we don't exist alone! or the fact that short videos best enjoyed multitasking and in large quantity don't really give us the opportunity to think about them, go deeper, learn more, ask ourselves questions... Do people take notes while watching tiktaks?

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This made me think about how once you’ve interacted with a few TikToks of people venting/seeking advice about some traumatic event you become bombarded with hundreds more, and it starts to feel like you’ve also experienced these events and thus keep scrolling to numb whatever emotions arise as a result.

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O my god yes. I’m a therapist and this is exactly how I feel about mainstream practice. AND the expectation so many therapy participants come in with. the idea that we will spend our time learning to better bottle up the screams and disappear them, instead of removing the obstacles to LET THOSE SCREAMS OUT!!!

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This is such a great essay

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This was so well written and well thought out, I loved it <3

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absolutely brilliant. thank you 🦋

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Terrific piece! I especially related to the part about the holistic psychologist and screaming. I’ve followed her on instagram but mostly scroll past her videos because I really don’t need to be thinking about whatever she’s posting during a lunch break on a weekday. I don’t find it helpful to be hyperaware about everything bad that’s happened throughout my day. Also, I agree, screaming in the car can be very cathartic.

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Ahhhh, an honour to have read this. Well written and informative on a variety of topics that connect to the main point. Especially loved the ending, “ And in the space where we could be letting love in, we are being told all the reasons we should turn away from it”

The internet is a place full of contradictions- from one people persuading others for revenge, love, do this and do that. A place where one post contradicts the other- opinions shared and unconsciously makes followers even though it isn’t on par with their morals and beliefs. Constant changes in trends and influencers that share and promote a false reality. It’s refreshing to have read this - makes it so valuable to have one’s own opinion and view and not be swayed by the paths of the internet that people continuously create.

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I’m a hundred years late to reading this but I’m so happy I found your words - they are beautiful and true and so poetically encapsulate something I’ve been contemplating about relationships and why we need them. Thank you so much. I’m a fan! ⭐️

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This is so so good!!! I need to watch Waking Life so bad now. Loved this ❤️

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